2 semanas faltan para que llegue mi prueba
2 semanas para ser juzgada y criticada
2 semanas para tratar de alcanzar mi objetivo
2 semanas... pueden ser mucho y a la vez poco tiempo
¿lo lograre? yo creo que si
2 semanas ...
I hope you liked it (for those girls who can read spanish, sorry for not translating... but im not good at it)
July 25th, 2006
July 13th, 2006
July 11th, 2006
I hate this.
To eat is to die, and to starve is to live.
But starving is slowly killing yourself.
To be as light as air.
To be as a whiff of smoke, to move gracefully and float and curl up and around the others.
To become transparent and to disappear.
I will accept that air that is within me,
it is all I need to survive,
Drunk on water. Feeding on the air.
reducing and disappearing until I am nothing,
June 23rd, 2006
I´m sitting at my school´s computer lab... and trying to understand why i cant stop eating... yesterday i was doing so good... slim milkshake in the morning.. one slice of pizza at lunch... but at night i HAD to fucked it up... as always i ate about 1000 cal in mexican food... all fatty food now my belly is bigger than it was....I´m arms are wider and im so depressed...
i need some self control...
i need it now!!!
i cant call myself an ed victim... im FAT ...
my friends are thin... and they eaT!!!! how do they do it??? i hate them ... they have skinny legs.. skinny bodies!!!!
SOMEDAY I WILL BE THIN!!!!!!!
February 20th, 2006
enough is enough....
nothing tastes as good as being thin feel... do you want to feel this?
you will be at the beach in one month... one month is all you have to loos all that grooose fat in your body, is not impossible... imposible is nothing, but you have to figth, figth the hunger, figth your desire for food, it have been 3 years in wich people always said you look fatter, youre gainning weigth... STOP that!!!! its time people start saying you look thiner, you look beautifl, you look pretty, stop being the fat girl in the group, i tought you should be tired of that a long ago... but it didnt seem to bother you, now does it???
ITS TIME TO CHANGE
January 30th, 2006
you feel fat? try to be a size 12!!!! yeah ladies and gentelmens.. i´m size 12 and i´m a big fat cow... i cant even look at myself in the mirror.. when i go to buy clothes i have to turn backwards to the mirror in the fitting rooms :( hate my big big big belly!!!! my fat thights, my fat and wavyy arms!!!
i have acid reflux.. and it is supposed that i should be able to purge easier... but i cant!!!!!
see ya... and dont feel so bad if you are a size 4 or 6... remember there´s people like me who really are grosse...